As we work on the paperwork we need to complete and save up the needed funds, I can't help dream of the possibilities that lie ahead. I am excited and hopeful about our future and these dreams reinforce my desire to become a mom. I have had many dreams about the children we will adopt and each dream makes my heart soar with love and hope.
The first dream I had centered around a sweet baby boy that God had given us. He was wrapped up in a soft, blue blanket and had the most amazingly sweet smile. I was holding him close and walking him on our front porch with the sun streaming down, giving an otherworldly glow to everything and highlighting the brilliance of his eyes. I sang to him as I walked him and his smile got bigger and bigger. My heart was so full of love and joy that I knew the dream had to have come from God.
The second dream I had was about the possibility of adopting twins. I was talking to a group of adoptive mothers who had all adopted twins and what a joy twins were. Until recently, I had not really thought of the possibility of adopting twins but now I cant stop thinking about it. In this dream, Josh and I had been chosen by a mother to adopt her twins that were due a few months down the road. I did not know if they were twin boys, twin girls, or a boy and a girl. All I knew was that we were soon to become parents, our family was about to start. The women in the group were reassuring me that while twins are tough it is so worth it and gave me advice on how to handle everything. I woke up feeling at peace and thinking about twins and the joy they bring.
My most recent dream was about a woman who, even though we had not gotten all our paperwork done, heard about us and wanted us to be the adoptive parents for her little girl. I was in shock and amazed that she had picked us without really knowing us. When she handed us this sweet angel wrapped in a pink blanket, I burst into tears of joy and my heart felt it would burst from the love that filled it. I never wanted to wake up from that dream and never wanted to let go of that beautiful baby girl.
While I do not know if these dream are in any way indicative of our future, I do know that they were from God. They showed me that regardless of whether or not we start our family by adopting a boy, or a girl, or twins, we will be incredibly happy. Our children will know unconditional love and I cant wait to shower them with that love.
I desperately want our family to start and our future to begin as soon as possible. Patience has never been a big strength of mine and these dreams make my heart ache to hold my children in my arms now! I know that I have to wait and let God work His plan in my life, and I am working on being patient. I know that I must continue to do what God has called me to do and He will bless me beyond measure when the time is right.
So let us not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9
I pray that God keeps giving me these dreams and allowing me to feel the hope, joy, and love that comes only from Him. He has blessed me with these dreams and has calmed my fears. I no longer worry about falling in love with the children we adopt, I no longer fear that our children will not bond with us or us with them. While I still struggle with patience, I know that God has many blessings in store for us and the blessing of children will one day be ours.
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