Dear Child

About a year ago I got to thinking of my future children and what I would want them to know.  There is so much I want to teach my children, so much I want them to know.  The biggest, most important things I want them to know is that they are loved, cherished, and wanted. Not just by Josh and I, but by God. I never want my children to feel as if they were unwanted, abandoned, or unloved.

 It does not matter to me how I become a mother, it never has. What matters to me is that I get the chance to hold my children in my arms and show them how much they are loved, show them what a blessing they are. While I sat there thinking about all this, I felt the need to write down what I felt.  The following are the words of my heart, the things I want my children to know.

"My Dearest Child,

 You are my precious gift from God.  I have loved you from the moment you were conceived.  I may not have known your name, but I loved you just the same.  God made you special and knew you would one day be mine.  For many years I prayed for God to bless me with the wonderful gift that is you.
 The wait seemed unbearable at times and I would wonder how much longer it would be before I could finally hold you in my arms.  I know now why I had to wait.  God was making you.
 I hope dear one that you never feel unwanted or unloved. For I have wanted you long before you were conceived and have loved you long before you were born.
You are the answer to my prayers and the best gift I have ever been given.
Words can never express how happy I am that you are my child and how blessed I feel to be your mom.
I love you so much dear one and I always will."

 It is not eloquent or well written, I know, but it is how I feel.  I wrote it as if to just one child but it holds true for each child I am blessed with. I know that I will make mistakes as a mother, I will falter and fail but, I hope that my children always know how much I care for them and never doubt my love.

  The love I have for my children, even though I do not yet know them, is deep, and lasting, and so very real.  Waiting to become a mother is one of the most difficult things I have ever done.  I want so much to be able to finally meet the children God has waiting to bless me with.  Some days I feel like I will explode from the wait and anticipation.  But, I know the wait is necessary and I will wait on the Lord and and trust in Him.

Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord. Psalms 27:14