Five Months

As our sweet angel sleeps in, again, I can't help but stare at her beautiful face and wonder how I got so lucky.  She may not always sleep all through the night, she may have many nights where she still sleeps in our bed, she may sleep in on days I need her to wake early like she once did, but I would not trade a single moment with her for all the money and sleep in the world!  

What is Emma up to in month 5 of being a blessing to mommy and daddy?  Well, she got two teeth at the end of month 4 and tries to use them as often as she can, even on dads poor fingers.  She is trying flavor combinations, like bananas and sweet potatoes, and loving all of them, so far anyway...  She is working hard at crawling and can scoot herself all over the place on her tummy, mostly in a circle and sometimes backwards.  She also roll all over the place, and, occasionally, rolls into things.  

She can sit up by herself for a few seconds without being propped by anything, even her hands.  She keeps growing like a weed! Mommy wants her to slow down! She is growing up too fast! lol  She is also learning how to use her voice and likes to "talk" and giggle all of the time.  She has been "talking" so much lately that her voice is hoarse.  I love her adorable little coos and giggles and am so excited to hear her first real word!  (I did think I heard her say; "oh man" clear as day once, and daddy thought he heard her say; "la la," so it may be coming soon!) 

I am in awe of all that she learns, all the connections she makes, how much she grows, mentally and physically, on a daily basis.  It is such an honor to be given this wonderful opportunity to be a mommy and help our baby learn and grow.  It is a such an awesome privilege, a gift and a challenge all rolled into one, I pray I don't screw it up!  I have seen how easily a child can be broken by a thoughtless word, a careless act, and I worry about making a horrible mistake that will damage her beyond repair.  

I know parenting mistakes are inevitable, we are all only human after all, but I desperately pray that the mistakes I am bound to make are not life-altering ones and Emma becomes the woman God wants her to be, despite my inadequacies and failures as a mom.  

We only have a few weeks left of this month and then Emma Love will be 6 months old!  Does anyone know what that means?  Yep!  Our first visit with Emma's birth-mommy in Salem!  I am so excited!  I know Alison is as well. :)  I wish there was a term that better described who Alison is and what she means to us, birth-mom, first mom, biological mom, all seem so impersonal and inadequate, not one of those terms encompassing any aspect of how amazing Alison is.  She is so much more than any of those terms would have you believe, she means so much more than those terms portray.   Maybe someday we can come up with a term that encompasses who she is and what she means to us... I look forward to hugging her and getting to know her more, and can't wait to see her and Emma together again after 6 months apart.  :)